Sneezing

So me havent been bloging for awhile now. Well the last two week was a rush. First was the final submission, then the other week was presentation week. Once that is done got a lab test on the weekend. So the smester is finaly coming to an end. Study week is just around the corner. Wait its here already. But my final wont start till like during the 2nd week. More time to study... or play :P Hemmm what else is new, my bro got enroll lim kok weng college. Taking mass com as his major. Hemmm wonder how well will he do. Hopefuly will grow up when his outside. Feeling very drowsy from my flu pill. These 2 days been raining, cant stop sneezing hehe either that or someone really enjoy talking behind my back. Okay cant think already, the pill is starting to kick in. Goodnite guys :) im feeling all nice and fluffy rite now dont know why hehe. nitez~

Random Thoughts

Alright you wouldnt imagine the ammount of time i submission accidentally close this blog while i was half way writting. Its so demotivating, ok im gona start all over again what i just type an hour ago. Looks like suang finaly put a piece of his mind into the blog. So deep, so much passion i dont even understand much what he wrote. Not an insult just that im just to plain simple haha. So it week 12 already of our semster, im beginning to feel like its holiday already. When the sem first started i was hoping it would end soon. Looks like my wish really came thru but it only took me so long to realise that what i really wanted was this sem to never end. Well im gona move out of my room after 2 years. Not really cause of the industrial training, just that i notice that people around me are more or less gone. No more reason for me to stay around anymore. In short no more people for me to fool around with anymore. Gona miss ahoi sleep talk, wei long singing even the fungas infected toilet. Sigh, well i never took for granted all this stuff, been enjoying every single moment of it. Dont you guys have a moment in time when u just wish this will never end. I had lots of it when i was inside this room. But i dont think its the room itself that doing the trick. Throw a guy in a room alone and lock him in its more like a prison. Throw a few crazy guys in a room, a voila there u have it. Read a very interesting article in times a few weeks ago. Its called Happiness or something like that, as i was saying the article talk about this how human tend to be more happy and stuff. What they found out was human tend to be more happy when they are close to their frens and family. Even took the 5 simple question test to measure my happiness. Turn out that i got second highest score. Now dont look at me and said yah yah cause u got a car, a cool computer and stuff. I tell u i rather trade away my computer and my stuff to get good company if i have too. Which bring me to another question, i have no idea why some people think that they will only be happy if thier involve in a relationship. Have it even struck thier mind that even if they have one it gona generate more problem. Not like i some mr anti love guy just that they cant even the people around them or even themself. If they cant do that why bother. ohhhh yes yes let me check i still have that happiness article with me cause there is one sentence i would like to share with u guys. There we go "Inability to forgive is associated with persistent rumination or dwelling on revenge, while forgiving bolsters postivie feelings about your past and gives you peace of mind" I tell u i have meet some of the worst people at forgiving. Not to point fingers here but i know we all are bad at this bad man i tell you. ie: when he/she said i forgive u the next moment he/she bring out the topic again. Well for me after a few major event in my university life (actually is more like major mistake) took me a few knock to get that in my head. Dont know how i manage to write all this thing just happen to pop up in my head. Free writting hehe. Yeah i just found out my ex have a blog of her own. Before i go any futher whatever i write is what i think honestly and its not because if hate her. Its very tempting to click on the link to see what on her mind. Sigh from all the story i hear from people around me seems like she will never get out of the cycle. The worst case even people she trust is talking behind her back. A BIG SIGH. Ignorace is bliss, i think all this gossip monger take pleasure on seeing other people pain. What a bunch of bastard.

Ok need to stop from current topic. If i continue i dont think ill wont get any sleep. So my bro just got his SPM result. Guess what, hemmm wait wait i think if u guys want to know come ask me. It not like i dont want to tell or shy or anything like that just that i think its not really a good idea to post his result out to public. Got a few fren where thier bro and sister are taking SPM too. When i ask the result, some gave me stright away while other just drag around. I guess its one of those think where you see youre auntie during the holiday and they will start comparing thier son or daughter result. The kiasuness in some people. Hemmmm its almost 5 in the morning i guess i go read on a certain blog that i have not visited for a long time before i go to sleep. Crap bad kiwi forgot the blog name :( VON!!! need link pls T_T for now guess its good night then. bye~

Blogging Jitters

To avoid criticism do nothing, say nothing, be nothing.
- Elbert Hubbard

Uli Hesse-Lichtenberger, soccernet's columnist for Germany's Bundesliga, mentioned in one of his articles that tentatively typing ‘The’ could be a pretty good start to remedy writer's block. Yeah, I didn’t start with ‘The’, but what he said was somehow enough to start me writing.

Blogging. Something that’s been nagging me in the back of my mind for awhile now. The one thing that’s been pegging me back from doing this earlier was my difficulty in putting thoughts into words. As simple as it seems to some, it isn’t to me. Neither my limited vocab nor coming up with topics to rant about posed problems to me. What got to me was that a blog is supposed to be something of an open diary; free for the writer to express his thoughts and feelings in whatever way he wishes-bias or neutral, disrespectful or considerate, shallow or deep. It’s public. And therein lies the problem; for me at least. It forces me to be guarded with what and how I present things in words. It’s hard when I want to perhaps write something negative about a friend and b!tch about it until I’ve calmed down. I don’t want to hurt his/her feelings and risk losing the friendship. But nobody’s perfect and sometimes those imperfections can wear my patience thin. Or how about my thoughts on other topics in general. Did what I just write seem disrespectful? Shallow? Stupid? Too aggressive? Are the feds on to me? I’m being judged. There’s a certain sense of paranoia to the reactions I’ll receive. It’s like wanting to tell the opposite sex (or what ever your sexual preference) that you like the fella, but there’s that fear of rejection choking you back. That fear of rejection, rejection of my thoughts and who I am by friends and society puts the ropes on the freedom a blog is suppose to provide in the first place. I have a friend who has had his blog flamed by other friends, trying to moralise him without taking up the mirror first.

But here it is, my first post.


posted by sktan.

Tinggling Tuesday

It 6 in the morning and i just came back from what i would say de best football match i have ever seen in a long time. Right will get into that in a moment. For now let me see where i left u guys off. Ohhhh yah the bad weekend that left chelsea out of the FA cup. Man that have been awhile sorry guys, as usual project, gaming, and a paper. Once that was clear i have to finish up my fyp report. Anyway i just got a load of stepthen chow movie from wei long. That expain why i wasnt bloging too much. Been loading my brain with all sort of nonsense. Anyway as to go back ealier as in tuesday, its been a wierd start to my day. First woke up drowsy from my cough med, and the first thing i saw was suang face. Hemmmmm ok so had lunch with the rest as ussual before going back to the room to play/work. Well i wouldnt say it was the main factor but rite up to then i got a y!m from someone special. It was a odd funny feeling as the conversation goes on. Dont really know what it meant, i use to get this b4 a football match starts. Well part of me kind of like it while the other part of me was trying to remind myself the boundries i could do. Oh yeah we had our first house meeting in like 1 year. Still remember our first house meeting. Was a very funny one. Well this time the tension between jolim and wei lonng i far more worst then i expected. Me being me as usual end up in the middle again, Jolim will tell me something then comes wei long will tell me something. Wonder when will it end. And another thing i believe suang will be soon bloging in my blog too. Just something i ask him to do for a very long time ago but he only decided to do it now. I guess u guys will be reading something from him too. So ill end this blog with a smile while going to bed, maybe cause Chelsea is thru, or maybe just becuase someone just reminded me on a feeling i use to feel. I catch u guys later au revoir(still coughing by the way)