Blogging Jitters

To avoid criticism do nothing, say nothing, be nothing.
- Elbert Hubbard

Uli Hesse-Lichtenberger, soccernet's columnist for Germany's Bundesliga, mentioned in one of his articles that tentatively typing ‘The’ could be a pretty good start to remedy writer's block. Yeah, I didn’t start with ‘The’, but what he said was somehow enough to start me writing.

Blogging. Something that’s been nagging me in the back of my mind for awhile now. The one thing that’s been pegging me back from doing this earlier was my difficulty in putting thoughts into words. As simple as it seems to some, it isn’t to me. Neither my limited vocab nor coming up with topics to rant about posed problems to me. What got to me was that a blog is supposed to be something of an open diary; free for the writer to express his thoughts and feelings in whatever way he wishes-bias or neutral, disrespectful or considerate, shallow or deep. It’s public. And therein lies the problem; for me at least. It forces me to be guarded with what and how I present things in words. It’s hard when I want to perhaps write something negative about a friend and b!tch about it until I’ve calmed down. I don’t want to hurt his/her feelings and risk losing the friendship. But nobody’s perfect and sometimes those imperfections can wear my patience thin. Or how about my thoughts on other topics in general. Did what I just write seem disrespectful? Shallow? Stupid? Too aggressive? Are the feds on to me? I’m being judged. There’s a certain sense of paranoia to the reactions I’ll receive. It’s like wanting to tell the opposite sex (or what ever your sexual preference) that you like the fella, but there’s that fear of rejection choking you back. That fear of rejection, rejection of my thoughts and who I am by friends and society puts the ropes on the freedom a blog is suppose to provide in the first place. I have a friend who has had his blog flamed by other friends, trying to moralise him without taking up the mirror first.

But here it is, my first post.


posted by sktan.